Monday, December 14, 2009

IN MY MIND

HELLO MY CRAZY BLOG HEADS HOPE EVERY 1 HAD A WONDERFUL WEEKEND. MINE ENDED PRETTY CRAPPY BUT THATS COOL. LIFE GOES ON. WANTED TO SHOW YOU GUYS WHAT I'VE DONE A LITTLE WHILE BACK AND DECIDED TO PUT A HOLD ON IT ,IT BEING MY 1ST TRY WITH A LIL' GRAPHIC ART WORK. I DRAW BY HAND AND THIS COMPUTER GRAPHIC SHIT IS A LIL INTIMADATING TO ME. BUT I GREW SUM MAN BALLS AND DID WHAT MY GUTT WAS TELLING ME TO DO.

I CALLED THIS POST "IN MY MIND" BECAUSE I ACTUALLY SEE THE FLASHES OF COLOR AND DESIGNS WHEN I DAY DREAM OR FALLING ASLEEP. NO I'M NOT CRAZY LMAO!!!! BUT WHEN I WAS MUCH YOUNGER I USED TO SEE THESE IMAGES ALMOST EVERY NITE AND IT USED TO SCARE ME, I THOUGHT I WAS LOSING MY COT DAMN MIND!





I NEVER TOLD THIS TO ANY1 UNTIL TODAY, AND THESE PICS ACTUALLY SHOW SUM OF THE THINGS I SEE.....I HOPE YOU GUYS DON'T THINK I'M A NUTT. YOU SEE EVEN WHEN I WAS TURNED OFF TO DRAWING MY MIND WAS DRAWING AND SKETCHING IDEAS TILL I AM FORCED TO PIC UP A PENCIL AND GET BUSY. MY PARENTS WANTED ME TO DRAW FOR A LIVING. I WAS YOUNG AND HARD HEADED AND WANTED TO FOLLOW MY 1ST PASSION..DANCING. BUT AS TIME GOES ON I REALISED THAT I SHOULD NEVER TAKE MY TALENT(S) FOR GRANTED. AND NEITHER SHOULD YOU.




I HAD A DREAM THAT I COULDN'T DANCE NOR DRAW ANY MORE BECAUSE...WELL I GUESS I DIDN'T TAKE WHAT I DID SERIOUSLY. I AM MY WORSTE CRICTIC!!! I HATED EVERY THING I DID OR FOUND SOMETHING WRONG IN EACH PIECE I MADE. I ADMIRE ARTIST SUCH AS MATTISE , LEONARDO DA VINCI( MY J.R.H.S WAS NAMED AFTER HIM), AND HAJIME SORAYAMA. AND I THINK I COMPLETLEY SUCK COMPARED TO THEM.





THEN A GOOD FRIEND TOLD ME "WHY COMPARE YOURSELF TO ANY1 IF THERE IS ONLY 1 YOU?" AND IT MADE ME THINK....MAYBE I'M BEING TO HARD ON MYSELF. I NEED TO APPRECIATE WHAT GOD HAS GIVEN ME EVEN WHEN I DON'T THINK ITS "PERFECT". MY DANCING, DRAWING, AND LOVE FOR FASHION MADE ME WHO I AM TODAY.




SLOWLEY BUT SURELY THOSE FLASHES OF COLORS AND LIGHTS STARTED MAKING ITS WAY BACK INTO MY DREAMS. AND I AM NO LONGER SCARED.





I ACTUALLY STUDY THEM AND SEE WHAT THEY ARE TRYING TO TELL ME. AND SINCE I CAN'T PROJECT WHAT I SEE ON PAPER THE GRAPHICS I DID HERE IS DEAD ON. FROM THE STRIPS TO THE COLORED BUBBLES MESSING WITH ME LOL. I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M TELLING YOU GUYS THIS HIDDEN SECRET OF MINE LMAO!





BUT HEY YOU GUYS ARE MY BLOG FAMILY SO EXCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM OR KICK ROCKS BARE FOOT



AND FOR THOSE WHO FIND INSPIRATION IN MY WORK OR MY STYLE I AM HUMBLED. NEVER WOULD I IMAGINE SOMEONE REACHING OUT TO ME AND SAYING THESE WONDERFUL INDEARING WORDS. I'M GETTING TEARS IN MY EYES SO LET ME STOP..





AND THANK YOU AGAIN FOR STOPPING BY. I KNOW MANY OF YOU JUST BROWSE AND DON'T BOTHER TO COMMENT OR SHARE A REACTION. BUT EITHER WAY I APPRECIATE YOU TO, SERIOUSLY. AND IF YOU WOULD LIKE ME TO CHECK YOUR BLOG DON'T BE AFRAID TO LET ME KNOW...AS YOU KNOW I AM A BLOG HEAD TOO. BTW THE MUSIC I PLAY HERE IS MUSIC THAT IS ACTUALLY BUMPING IN MY IPOD. GROWING UP IN FRANCE MADE ME LIKE ALL TYPES OF MUSIC. FROM "SYSTEM OF THE DOWN" TO "GOST FACE KILLA", I AM A WEIRD SOUL LOL. HOPE EVERYONE HAS A WONDERFUL WEEK. LUV YOU GUYS , EASY!


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